This is a perfect post for Easter week. It’s a story of hope when life hurts. Deanna is one of our pastor’s wives, and I admire her so much. I love that she is sharing her heart candidly with you today, and I hope you’re as encouraged as I was reading part of her story.
“Christ in you the Hope of Glory…”
That was the chorus of a song at a conference I was attending at my church. I was so moved by this song that I sought out its meaning. Someone shared that it came from a verse in the Bible, Colossians 1:27 “To them God chose to make known how great among the Gentiles are the riches of the gory of this mystery, which is Christ in you the hope of glory.”
I read this over and over and didn’t really come to a conclusion on to how to apply it to my life. So I moved on in life with the verse in the back of my head, hoping that God would someday reveal a better understanding of it.
Fast forward a few years, and I was going through a really difficult time. I was struggling with depression and unworthiness. It was a season that I found hard to get out of bed, one in which I would cry at the drop of a hat and honestly had no motivation to go on. I had surrendered my life to Christ at the age of 26, so at this point I was a dozen years into my walk with Christ. Why was I struggling so much?
Circumstances in my life had taken me to a point of despair and I saw no hope. I couldn’t understand how living for Christ had brought me to this point which piled on even more unworthiness and hopelessness. I felt like a curse to my family, to my friends
and most of all to God. I was afraid that everything Christ had done was not good enough to make me good, to make me righteous, to save me. “I was too bad,” I thought.
How arrogant and wrong I was! But during this time I stumbled across another verse I had read many times before and still was unclear of the meaning. All throughout John 15 it says over and over, “Abide in Me”. So I started to dwell on this scripture, thinking about it constantly. What does Abide mean?
I looked it up. Abide means “to rest or remain”
To remain in Christ? Well, I hadn’t walked away from my faith even thought I was really struggling. But then God revealed it to me. To remain in Christ meant even in times of uncertainty or doubt or struggle or trial I was to remain in the safest place I could. Remaining in Him meant RESTING in the saving, safe and comforting arms of my Savior. Even when my circumstances were difficult or my mind was playing tricks on me.
The truth of scripture washed over me and the lies I had been believing. I knew I had Truth in me and fighting for me. That Truth was Christ making me worthy and righteous, not my circumstances or anything that I could ever do. This Truth meant that there was more to life than these dark moments!
The hope of heaven became my new goal, my ultimate reminder that the hurt I was feeling here on Earth wasn’t the end. There is a place where there are no tears, no dark, no doubt! Abiding in Him was a promise of forever. This world and all the hurts that come with it are just preparing us for heaven where believers will abide with Him forever.
Then that song came back to my mind, Christ in me the hope of Glory”–that’s what it meant! Christ is in me, what a beautiful and satisfying Truth. Him in me meant I was not alone. I had the God who loved me enough to die for me residing in me. Guiding me and protecting me and loving me. What hope and comfort that brings!
AND the hope of Glory! Not only do I get Christ in me right now but I have the hope of heaven forever! This life is not all there is! I can face every day with the assurance of eternity. No circumstance life could ever bring can steal away that joy of spending eternity with my Savior.
I finally felt free! Because this world isn’t the end. Christ in me the hope of Glory. I can’t wait to abide with Him forever.