Diets, cleanses, fixes, detoxes …
Until just a couple months ago my only response to these invitations was “yeah….NO thanks. I’m good!” (as I stuffed another scone in my mouth).
I put myself into a category that I didn’t belong in. “Just fine.” “Healthy enough.” “Fit enough.”
Conviction was setting in. I knew that my body was reliant on sugar for comfort (not the Lord.)
My energy levels were dependent on sugar and caffeine. I was addicted to certain junk foods. I wasn’t drinking enough water. I felt great in my own skin, but I knew that there were some habits that needed to change if I wanted to take the best care of myself from the inside out. I could run and do yoga all day but if I continued forever fueling myself improperly, I would never achieve my highest potential (in fitness or life).
“I have the right to do anything,” you say–but not everything is beneficial. “I have the right to do anything”–but I will not be mastered by anything.” -1 Corinthians 6:12
It was time to fight back.
When our friends started talking about a detox they had done multiple times before, our curiosity was peaked. “More energy” … “feeling the best I’ve ever felt” … hmmmm. Then came the pang of conviction. BAM. We have to try it.
Three kids under 5? Yep, we will try anything for more energy. Seriously. The hubs was all about it, having wanted to lose a few pounds for awhile. I knew doing it together would also be a strong marriage move. SO MANY WINS … yet so many scary sacrifices!
With some hesitation, but with extensive conversations and planning, we took a leap.
We started 11 days ago, not that I’m counting, and I can’t believe it. We’re doing it!
I have been 11 days without coffee.
and Dairy. (except for the tiny sample square of cheese at Sam’s that I cheated for! It was lame, FYI, very not worth it 😉
HOLY COW YOU GUYS! No peanut butter! No Redband! No handfuls of goldfish when the kids have a snackeroo. No glass of red wine with Parenthood. Not even my old friend cottage cheese!
I honestly can’t believe this is actually happening.
I need you to know that if I can do it, you can do it. (so pray for me because I’m not done yet ;))
I’ve also begun a couch to half marathon training program so I can run a half marathon to ring in my new decade in January. (this former marathon girl had become a computer potato with the book launch and my heart was aching for some cardio!)
This is crazy business. Healthy living is going on up in here. It was about time!
Words can’t possibly describe how addicted to sugar I was. (Baked goods were in my tummy if they were in the room.)
Also coffee. All the drive through coffee things. (I strategically weaned myself off of coffee gradually leading up to the cleanse from 1 cup to 1/2 cup to 1/4 cup because I’m a wussy when it comes to headaches and I didn’t want any extra obstacles. I knew the sugar withdraws would be hard enough.)
I’m realizing how bad it was by how intensely I still want to go to these things when I’m stressed with the kids. But so many good things are coming out of this.
What I’ve learned so far about healthy eating:
- It’s a sacrifice. (a beyond worth it one)
- Our culture isn’t conducive to healthy living. Not even a tiny bit. Grr.
- My body
likesloves being fueled by good stuff.
- I don’t get dizzy during yoga anymore.
- I feel amazing after my runs and meals. (no more running tension headaches!)
- I never leave restaurants feeling disgusting.
- Cooking healthy food from a plan is fun (and saves us stress and money!)
- I feel SATISFIED.
- I miss Oreos. And baked goods. And my coffee. (But tea is SERIOUSLY growing on me!)
and most importantly
- I am stronger than I thought possible.
God is birthing some dreams in my heart that I’m about to LEAP into (my word of the year). This leap is going to tie together this experience with so many of the experiences I’ve had over the last twelve years of my life.
(Surviving terribly unhealthy body image, my years of pilates and yoga instruction, surviving infertility and myparents’ divorce, my running experience, my faith journey, and our healthy eating and living… YALL, I. AM. SO. EXCITED. And I THINK YOU’RE GOING TO LOVE IT!)
I cannot wait to share what’s on the horizon. (SOON. Keep those pretty little ears to the floor…and do some stretching while you’re down there!)
But first, I have to go finish this cleanse.
I can do hard things. You can do hard things, sister.
Deep breaths! Here we go!! (DATE NIGHT!)